I'm never catching up. Ever. xD Watching journals, critiques, and more, was the worst idea I ever had. Am I back? Probably not. Have I done art recently? Sorta. Do watercolors count? Been playing with those a bit. Had an idea for a project and then went HAHAHAHA right xD so yeah. Here I am randomly. Probably talking to myself, but no matter. Most journals are more for the people writing them than the people reading them anyway. Most.

Hey hey you you I don't like your--boyfriend? Finding someone who gives a damn about you really is a shock after a couple assholes in a row. Scuse my french, invisible audience. But thank you God and all that is holy. He's amazing. Nathan, I love you. DA, expect to hear from me if it goes horribly wrong, cause this one will break my heart. Onwards!

Do I miss being around here? Yes, believe it or not, you silly website, you. I miss doing art all the time and seeing people tell me how nice it is. You liars, you. <3 Mostly I miss getting better at something I really love to do. so why am I not doing it? Honestly, I don't know. I quit having ideas I guess. Quit writing. Quit caring about anything xD It will have to change now I fear, because my life is going to go through an upheaval of epic proportions.

Spin wants me to get a Livejournal. I say nevar.

On the bright side! I have started writing again. Yes, once again I have IDEAS and plans and plots and spots of color (: Course then I ran headlong into a sad scene and my excuse for putting that off is because...well..IT'S SAD OKAY?! Maybe art is next? I did have fun playing with watercolors...

Make no promises, break no promises. :3

How's Dylan? He's fluffing out quite nicely with winter, thank you for asking. The hair is unbelievable. I can just sink my fingers into it and BAM. Warm. Course he gives me weird looks for telling him he's my fluffywuffyfoofyloveponyfoo but hey. He'll get over that. I plan to go make him look like a girl sometime this week...I'm going to braid his mane and put green and red ribbons in it xD Debating over his tail. Mom wouldn't let me get a giant bow to stick on his butt. Darnit. Merry Christmas! I will miss him when I go, no matter what everyone says...since he bucked me off it just hasn't been the same. Guess I wasn't meant to have a horse...

I rofl at myself and my last journals. November...Jan...Feb...Mar...Apr..Jun...Aug...and now December xD I'm so full of fail. Still watching me? Stop xD I was so proud of my slightly growing watcher-base, too. See what an idiot I am. Now I have to start over. Someday. Anyone here play Perfect World International, anyway? =/ Someone hit me over the head with something hard and--on second thought, don't. The wakeup call is coming, never fear. I'm enjoying the silence (:

Oh, and before I forget...James, I'm enjoying Colt SO much xD Thanks for that. It's been a lot of fun and continues to be. I'm not ignoring you =/ Or anyone else on MSN...because MSN fell over and died a horrible death when I tried to update it. I am forced to use yahoo now for everything, including MSN contacts. So sorry for that...I didn't want it to seem like I got what I wanted from you, so now I'm ditching you xD But yeah. It's a blast. Love being a barb. And I PWN. xD

~Merry Christmas.

Hope everyone is well. I miss you and still think about you, Huggable Person. You know where to find me if you need me. I've even been getting on Facebook more often...just not good at keeping track of people and everything that needs to be done. Staple a post-it note on me xD Atocha, Ashley...still love you guys. I'm a horrible online friend. xD Hope college and life treats you well. You all deserve it.

A.K.A, last journal, GTFO mah page xD

Yes, I am alive...

I've been okay. Really, I have to keep reminding myself that life is good, because it is...sometimes things happen and you wonder why you're here, but then you go outside and the air hits you, and the sun is lighting up the sky with golds and pinks and oranges...it's worth it then. Why haven't I been here? Because I let a game consume my soul xD Not to say I'll be here more because I've realized that, but...there you are.

The horse is okay. We can finally ride again, though I find myself not wanting to as much, because we fight the whole time. I don't know what I'm doing wrong and I don't know how to fix it...it's just not fun when things are like that. But he's a good boy regardless, and I love him so much.

School is over forever, unless I so choose to go to college...what an odd thought...

I graduate this Saturday. Yesterday I passed my big final speech of retardedness. YAY!!!!

Kyle

Annnnd that's about it. Still love you guys, think about you often. Just because I'm not here doesn't mean I've forgotten about yous. I haven't been on Perfect World all that much either, so don't think I just can't multitask anymore xD I'd say that I might post something shiny, but with my track record as of late, I think I'll just leave it unsaid.

I love you guys...

Or something. Anyway. I have fail multitask between here and Perfect World. xD Feel free to kick me ;D I'll kick you back >_> maybe. Possibly. I still love you? I still have things to work on? ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; I did art the other day? O: It's freakin AMAZING HOMFG..........yes. End. Now. I have nothing more to say. xDDD

Oh. I met a nice guy. I like him muchly.

I'm not dead.
I just have fail.
More when I have less fail.
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